[ My Profile ]
Name: Adeline Lee
Birthday: 11 August 1981
Horoscope: Leo
Nick: purinsesu
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[ Wishlist ]
~To complete my ACCA
~To get a better career path
~To stay pink & healthy
~Everyone around me will be happy & cheerful
~To find someone i love & the person must love me
~To start a new life & leave the past behind
[ My Loves ]
Shopping
Sun Tanning
Travelling
Go KTV
Cycling
[ My Detests ]
Backstappers
Fake Frens
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Tuesday, July 05, 2005
\~My reply to u~/
Being quite surprised tat u actually reply to my tag.... for wat i could say... i m not blaming u for tis relationship tat didnt worked out... i oso know tat u dun feel good abt it... but i just wish to express out how i feel... n nothing else do matters now... both u n me comes from a different world... we have tried to combine our world as one but sad to say, we failed to do so... the problems dun come from u solely.. its my fault too... cos i m holding on to my pasts... i didnt point my fingers solely on u... but tats the kind of feelings tat i felt n i just wish to write out... tats wat my blog is for mah... if not, i dun think i have a need to write blog... wat i need for my next relationship is somebody who is able to provide me wif great security n tolerance tat i need... i need great security cos i dun have any trust in man... Our relationship fail cos u didnt provide me wif the kind of secure feelings i need... but everything is over... i do believe i m not the type of gal tat u wan.. cos u wanted great security on ur side too... thus, ended both of us r protecting from one another like hell...
i just wan to write out how i feel... i hope u padon me for writing it all.... at the beginning when got on wif u, i really love u n i had wanted it to be a final stop... after my past r/s wif ah beng, i wanted a worked out relationship... i had always wanted a relationship to work out n see the happy ending... i did tried hard... but we put in efforts at the wrong time... do u know wats the main problem tat i see between us? i dun felt being loved! i wanted more than all tis... i wanted the kind of care n concern from a bf... but u failed to give me... when i started to realise we do have problems... i didnt wan to end our r/s... i had wanted it be a last stop for me... i have thot a lot... i tried to forget n continue... I had spoke to many of my frens... Everyone ask me if i see no future, y do i still hold on? i replied: i m hoping for a miracle to happen... a miracle which i always thot n wanted to see... think i must be dreaming in my homeland... come to think abt it, maybe tis miracle will not happen, n u happen to ask me abt how r we progressing.... tis triggle my thots to tell u all... we always commented in a relationship, no party is at fault.... (you yin bi you guo) there must be a reason to everything... i didnt wan to blame u for anything... i just wish to express out my feelings.. i just writing out how i feel... tats all... just like u have ur own group of frens n u will tell them how u feel... i m just doing the same way as wat u r doing... definately my frens will sure stand by me n definately ur frens stand by u too.... u mentioned "i using one finger to point at ppl n actually 4 are pointing to myself"... i wish to explain tis... cos arent u doing it oso.... u oso will tell ur frens how u feel... who dun protect himself? all human do so lor... u say i need to be a better person... it hurts in a way tat u actually saying me in tis way... i didnt expect tis... but anyway, i m fine now... but i wish to add on tis... not necessary the one who initiate is at fault.... i wish to explain tis... cos the party who initiate it didnt feel good oso... just tat everyone will tend to more sympathise wif the other party... but who will feel good after a breaking r/s.... i dun feel good... but i will let it all to a rest... i dun wish to mention it again...
i m leading my life rather well now... n i oso hope u will find ur own life n own happiness... anyway, we are all grown up adults... there's no point in saying abt anything tat we cant solve n quarrel over all tis small little issues... its all over... we shouldnt be bothered by the past anymore... Let us all let go of everything for now... After a failure, we need to move on n forget.... Forgiveness is the key to unhappiness... tis phase i learnt today really taught me a lot of things.. i will remember it... Be it watever happen in the future, we can still remains as frens... The kind of frens wif no hatred in it.... (",)
[ Little Purinsesu ] blogged @ 10:55 AM
