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Wednesday, July 06, 2005
\~Explanation on Everything~/
After all my frens who got to know abt my tag board incident, everybody feel so surprised wat is it abt? actually its just one of my posting which got to the whole issue... Cat is trying to help n stand by me... ~thanks cat... i know u r a good fren :)~ wat i could explain is cat is just a fren trying to stand by me... i know u feel tat her words attack u but can u try not to attack her personal things? pls stop tis war wif her... as tis is between us n i dun wish to involve more n more parties.... *pls* do me tis favour..
i know u dun feel good regarding our breaking up.... but i dun feel good either... i dunno is it u feel tat i m the one who initiate tis breakup n thus u feel tat i owe u an explanation on y? i dunno how u feel oso... but i could say i have my reasons for tis breaking up... it makes up of a lot of issues.... if u wan to know the full story... u say... i can write it all out in my tmr's posting... its up to u whether u wan to know or not? for tis conclusion tat i made, i wasnt feeling good oso... remember u r the one who say we can still keep in touch... but got many times, i know u r avoiding me in msn... i dunno is it i sensitive lah... but i know u feel tat i m at fault... i do agree tat i m at fault for tis failure of our relationship... but then, wat really happen? do u know? for all my past relationships, u r the only one tat i was always protecting in a way... i nv really been frank wif my words to u in many things.. cos i dun wish to hurt u... cos i m afraid tat u cant take my harsh words... so for the reason of our breaking up, i did hide some of the facts in a way... Towards ah beng or my ex in the past, all my unhappy things or things tat i just not happy, i will just say it all out in a very straight forward manner... cos they r too used to my temper in a way... but for u, little things, u will feel rather heavy n u will smoke n drink.... i dun wan... i hope u will recover fast n move on.... Am i wrong in covering all tis facts? perhaps i should be frank like before... but i didnt... *sorry for didnt let u know the whole truth* i leanrt tis today... TRUTH hurts... but darkfulness do hurts at times too... so wat is the correct thing to do?
for my first posting regarding u, tats purely how i feel towards our relationship... my blog is for me to write out how i feel towards everything... my blog is for me to write out all my feelings... especially those which is kept inside my heart... i need air to breath too...
As for the drastic change tat u mention, i dunno wat u wan to do to urself... but then, i hope u do know wat u r doing... :)
i wish to tell u tis... i really do appreciate for all the things tat u did for me in the past... sometimes i didnt express myself but doesnt mean i just dislike things u did.... u might have felt things tis way... i m not those kind who dun appreciate things... i do... but i just didnt express all out...
Actually wat is ur expectation of a gf? actually in love, there shouldnt be a solid or definite ans to which kind of gals or guys u wan... cos all tis r feelings issues... u can meet a gal wif all the requirements tat u wan... but do u love her? tats the most impt factor in a relationship... u may love somebody which didnt meet ur requirements at all.. but the fact turns out to be tis person could be the one u will love most... Do u agree?
i really do hope things dun turn so sour in tis manner... i still hope we can remain as good frens... still can come out for coffee n so... i didnt expect things to turn bad till tis manner...
i always ask myself tis... is it for relationship, after the sweet period of love n after a storm of unhappiness, there's really no way to be frens once again? tis person told me tis "i can nv be fren wif u... u can either be my gf, if not, i dun even wan to remain as normal fren.. to be normal fren is impossible" i simply hate tis sentence lor... it seems so petty... especially from guys... cos isnt petty used to describe gals? to me, an once couple can still remain as frens.. y not? cos tis person knows u well enough in a way n can give better advises to u... who love to have more enemies than frens? i hope u understand wat i mean... to me, i do classified u as somebody who can talk things out properly... n i do believe u arent someone so petty rite? (not like somebody angry wif me till now over such a small issue - u know who i refering to rite?) i hope u have a better understanding of how i feel n think till now.... actually sometimes i do wonder, do u actually know wats the reasons for our breaking up?
[ Little Purinsesu ] blogged @ 6:45 PM
